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hahaha i love christine jake and tony.
especially jake. ;) we gotta finishe
what we started! i promise we will!
haha i'm sorry we got caught. i promise
next time we wont. and cross my heart
we will get madd fucked up again and
fuck each others brains out. haha. and
tony + christine can finish there bisenuss.
♥ i lovw you !
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[16 Dec 2004|01:36pm] |
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uhm. yeah.
sdfsdfsdf.
<3 <3 <3 ?
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[07 Dec 2004|04:55pm] |
MY DAD IS OUT!
we get to see him on friday!
all the people that knew him
like christine, jaime, megan,
ashley, melanie, jessi, heather
yall should be HAPPY! =)!
<33!
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[07 Dec 2004|10:58am] |
JAIME is my BEST friend. =)
me + her = great times!
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[02 Dec 2004|09:53am] |
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well. first i'd thank Belinda for giving me Charles's sn. so i IM Charles like HEY! what's up blah blah blah. and i send Jason a message on myspace. saying how i feel & such. and i get upset because i get no reply. so i tell Charles to tell Jason to read & reply cuz it's important. so he's like. " if you want i could go get him and you can talk to him" so i'm like ":D! if you want" so then Jason gets on & i tell him to check his messages. he's like "well take it from the top, at first, yes you were a re-bound thing, but
i found myself liking you more & more. 2nd, i do still love angel, but it a totally diffrent way. (more like good friend) so i'm like. :D! the he told me he commented in my myspace. so i check, and this is what is said...
"jason
Dec 1, 2004 06:18 PM
look there r times i find my self thinking of u and what could of been, i feel that i should of givin u more of a chance to turn your bad habbits into good ones, but spending so much time and energy on angel, i found it hard to go from something i knew well to something i knew for a week. just thinking of how much time and errort i would have to put into me and u to get to the kind of relationship that i wanted it to be, was difficult to even think of. i know i said i like a challenge but u and me were one challenge i diddnt think i could win. yes there can still be something between me and u its just going to take a while. i know u have waited 4 months but bare with me it will happen "
and i'm like. "AWWWWWW!!!"
i'm really glad i didn't give up..
it's scary how close i came tho.
and now, i know there's still hope.
and i'm happier then EVER! <3 <3
I Love You, Jason. :D
<3
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[29 Nov 2004|11:16pm] |
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i really don't know what to think anymore..
i've never felt this way for anyone else..
and i'm so confused..
|[ comment if you can help me fall out of love..</3 ]|
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[26 Nov 2004|11:05am] |
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you can't tell me he's not hot..
ugggh i miss him soo much.
<//33
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[20 Nov 2004|05:50pm] |
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well me and jenn took the omnilink to the mall. when i got there i hungout with Liz and Megan and everyone. then megan said she was having a party sence her mom's still in mexico. so we all went out to kelly's car and he was geting mad cuz all these people invited themselves so me kelly and liz waited for jason an rico to see if they wanted to come but they didn't know if they wanted to so we got a ride from bj and mario then it was really boring but we were helping heather because she took 2 acid and she was convulsing and then we left and went to sheetz to wait for bj's mom to come get us and then mario kept hitting on me and i like him so i was ok with it then he gave me a hickey and then he left and bjs mom picked us up and on the way bj was like "mom pull over i gotta puke" so we pulled over and waited for like 30 minutes till he punked then the pregnant girl threw up cuz she has bad gag relfexes. so i said to put bj in the front seat so he could throw up out the window and give the girl a bag. then me and jenny got dropped off at marks party house and got drunk. it was embarrasing cuz i watched the videotapes the next morning and i was smashed. but now i'm home and it's "saturday recovery" lol. mark and everybody were nice people. ha i got my picture in the "regurrgitation" photoalbum. lol it was fun. but i don't think i'm gunna be doing that ever again i didn't even remember what happened and when i saw myself on camera i was shocked. so yeah.
<3
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at the mall i hungout with Erika<3 for a while. we went to wal-mart and i shot shampoo up her nose. it was fun. well when i got there, i went to vans. saw Andy & Erika &Charles skate. then outa nowhere Jason<333 rolls by. gives me a big hug. it made my day.
kthnxbye.
<333333
it's been sence 8.29.04 and i still feel the same.
remember the night we first met and i told you i
loved you and you told me it was too early to say that
well i was right and i still feel the same. and i know what
i'm feeling. i just really hope you feel the same way.
that wouldbe perfect...but nothings perfect...
but it would be nice. don't you agree?
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 still feelin' it sence August 29th. ;)
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[07 Nov 2004|09:51pm] |
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Evergreen Terrace-Dear Live Journal |
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..comment if you think i'm hott. =P
<3
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[07 Nov 2004|11:47am] |
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Charlene-Anthony Hamilton |
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Woke up this morning found a letter that she wrote
She said she's tired that I'm always on the road
To hard to swallow being alone
She needs someone at night that she can hold
She must have told me a thousand times before
Silent cries I use to ignore
God knows I love her
Didn't mean to hurt her
Baby I'll be
Sitting here waiting on you to come home again
I won't leave
Promise I'll be here to the very end
By your side
To protect you and to love you and to be with you for life
Come on home to me Charlene
She knows I really love this old music thang
Since I was a child it's been my dream
I can support her treat her and spoil her
You know buy her the finer things
But I forgot about loving her
Damn the money, diamonds and pearls
What about the hard day she had with the baby
All she need is for me to love her
Baby I'll be
Sitting here waiting on you to come home again
I won't leave
Promise I'll be here to the very end
By your side
To protect you and to love you and be with you for life
Come on home to me Charlene
Promise I can't live without her
God knows I need her loving
And it hurts so bad that's she gone
I pray that she'll come back one day
In my life
Baby I'll be
Sitting here waiting on you to come home again
I won't leave
Promise I'll be here to the very end
By your side
To protect you and to love you and be with you for life
Come on home to me Charlene
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wow. today sucked. well when we got to the mall it did. omg. i saw jason and i started freaking the fuck out. and i was pissing everyone off. shit i was even pissing myself off. fuck. but i met kyle <3 there and i feel really bad because since i saw jason that was all i would talk about. and i wasn't showing any affection towards kyle. =( and when ashley and me and jaime and kyle were walking to the food court we saw jason again and i started talking to him not alot just like "hi" and my heat was beating really fast. and then kyle sat down and then me and jaime were talking on the side and then we turned around and kyle was gone. and jaime said that kyle told her that i was leaving him out. and now i feel like shit because i didn't mean to. god i hate being in love with jason because i know that he doesnt feel the same. and i have kyle right in front of me who does feel the same and i blew him off. this sucks so much ass. kyle, if your reading this, i'm really sorry and i never meant for today to be like this. =(
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today Jaime's supposed to come over. and then i'm probably going to invite kyle and christine over. i think it'll be fun. man, livejournal is kinda getting annoying..there's nothing to write about anymore. kelly, we need to hangout sometime..i saw your pictures on VP and i was like dammmmn. cuz last time i saw you you had really short hair like mine and now it's like..woo. lol anyways. amy + heather, i haven't hungout with you guys since i left. =[ we really need to hangout. anyways. ever since me + kyle have been going out..most of my problems faded away..but there's this one problem that i can't stop thinking about. and i don't wanna tell anyone what it is..i mean, if you're special, like Christine, Jaime, Amy, Kelly, Rico, Ash, Mel, Sarah, Brittney or Erika, then you already know. and hopefully you understand my situation. i know Melanie does, because it's happened to her before, and she had to wait a whole damn year. and it really sucks. and to the rest of you who don't know..i'm sorry i can't be totally honest with you. =/. i mean maybe one day you'll find out. it's kinda not that big of a deal, but it just won't go away. and everytime i listen to a certain song..with lyrics like "i'll be sittin here waitin on you to come home again, i won't leave, i promise i'll be here till the very end" or "yes i remember boy, cuz after we kissed i could only think about your lips, from that moment i knew, you were the one i could spend my life with, and i know there's another man in my life but you will always be my boo"...i mean that explains it ALL right there. and that's why i don't like to listen to those songs anymore without crying. and it sucks because when you're trying your hardest to be loyal to someone..but someone else keeps popping in your head it makes you wanna kill yourself. and what also makes me wanna kill myslef is the fact that even though i know it's OVER between me and Jason, he basically HATES me...and i know that and i know nothing will EVER happen with me and him AGAIN..he won't get out of my head!! and i don't wanna love him anymore. can someone please help me?? i know Kyle is helping me, cause when i'm around him, i'm loving him. and only him. with the acception of Erika, but that's nothing new. -sigh- ...i love Kyle with most of my heart. i wish i could say all of my heart but a piece of my heart is with someone who doesn't give a shit about me what so ever. so jason, i'd like that piece of my heart back. since you've already broken it a thousand times. Kyle, i love you. -deep breath- woo. that's nice to get that one off my chest. now i can be happy. =)
<33
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